Wohoo for the longest title on my blog.
Beware: this is a stupid romance story from my high school days as I remember it. It's really boring.
I promised on this post: http://infinidoodle.blogspot.com/2013/10/difference-in-time.html, that I'd talk about Nekohime, or the so-called Valkyria of my high school days.
Well we all have that high school crush who you got to confess to but the built relationship suddenly went downhill, that girl, to me, is the Valkyria.
I met her during the 2nd year of my high school. She has long black hair, and cute oval eyes. Her name is... well I can't name drop but perhaps Lienne would do. She's usually quiet, only chatting with her close friends, and seldom does she go out of the classroom.
I forgot how I met her exactly but when I learned that she likes anime I immediately befriended her. She, along with two of her best friends, and also my best friends made my 2nd year my best year in high school.
Our 2nd year pretty much went by with all of us great friends. It's not often that I get to meet an anime enthusiast (most of the people in our high school are inclined to american pop culture).
When our 3rd year came, she got separated from her closest female friends. She was really quiet that year, but she did have some one-on-one conversation with one of her elementary classmates. That somehow made me jealous. I realized then that I had a crush on her.
Still we remained good friends, at least that's what I think.
When the month of hearts came, and so as our JS Prom. I was surprised to be picked as once of the dancers in the cotillion. Because of incentives, I agreed. But when we lined up to see who our partners would be based on our heights, she had to come along. That's right, Lienne was my partner in the first part of the cotillion.
I got to hold her hand, touch her waist, her fragrant scent might still be somewhere in my memories. Of course, she also held my hand and my shoulder. Our eyes would occasionally meet, then she'd smile and I'd reply by also smiling.
Our first few practice sessions was like a far off dream that only happened once in a life time. I was practically dancing with her everyday until the Prom.
Sadly, midway during the practice sessions, I cowardly confessed (more of implied, actually) that I have a crush on her. I said that I wanted to dance with her at the Prom even after the cotillion.
The days after sending that message, she distanced herself from me.
It was like building an enormous stack of cards that came crashing down after one single mistake. The rest of my high school days was partly depressing because of that.
During the Prom, after the cotillion, I held on to a rose and planned to give it to her at some point during the evening. One of my friends would push her near me but I acted cowardly. I avoided her, only to look like a stalker hiding in the shadows...or the curtains.
But I was greatly discouraged, too. During the cotillion, her hands didn't felt like the same as before I confessed to her. She avoided eye contact, and looked like she didn't want me getting close to her afterwards.
I was still able to give her the rose, but the tower of friendship that we had built was destroyed.
Our friendship went downhill, and I never got to have any fun talk to her ever again.
During our fourth year, she was reunited with her two best friends again. Sadly, I felt like I spoiled the fun because I had to be at the same section as her. Still, it was good enough that the presence of her two best friends dispelled my aura. At least she was happy.
But it just feels sad that I never got to hold any conversations with her and her best friends like from our 2nd year.
I acted like a jerk around them seeking her attention, but I assume that only made her impression of me even worst.
She didn't attend the field trip and also the JS Prom that year. It might be because of other reasons, but as I have the right to, I also blame myself.
I suppose the last really 'fun' time that I spent together with them was during the days we built the cardboard Christmas tree for the annual Lantern Parade. That and never again.
I wasn't even able to say goodbye at the graduation ceremony.
Now here's the catch, now that we've walked our own paths (not just us but everyone as well) I guess my downfall was that I also liked her two best friends.
Eliza and Eurika (just nicknames).
Her nickname, Nekohime, came from the nickname she used when she chatted with me at the Dollars live chat room.
I dubbed her Valkyria because, at the time when I realized I had a crush on her, I was playing Valkyria Chronicles II and thought that she was the exact opposite of Aliasse. Or perhaps I think it just befits her personality...I don't know.
Right know I'm supposed to not care, but deep down I still feel like I could've done something then that could have at least restored our friendship.
Beware: this is a stupid romance story from my high school days as I remember it. It's really boring.
I promised on this post: http://infinidoodle.blogspot.com/2013/10/difference-in-time.html, that I'd talk about Nekohime, or the so-called Valkyria of my high school days.
Well we all have that high school crush who you got to confess to but the built relationship suddenly went downhill, that girl, to me, is the Valkyria.
I met her during the 2nd year of my high school. She has long black hair, and cute oval eyes. Her name is... well I can't name drop but perhaps Lienne would do. She's usually quiet, only chatting with her close friends, and seldom does she go out of the classroom.
I forgot how I met her exactly but when I learned that she likes anime I immediately befriended her. She, along with two of her best friends, and also my best friends made my 2nd year my best year in high school.
Our 2nd year pretty much went by with all of us great friends. It's not often that I get to meet an anime enthusiast (most of the people in our high school are inclined to american pop culture).
When our 3rd year came, she got separated from her closest female friends. She was really quiet that year, but she did have some one-on-one conversation with one of her elementary classmates. That somehow made me jealous. I realized then that I had a crush on her.
Still we remained good friends, at least that's what I think.
When the month of hearts came, and so as our JS Prom. I was surprised to be picked as once of the dancers in the cotillion. Because of incentives, I agreed. But when we lined up to see who our partners would be based on our heights, she had to come along. That's right, Lienne was my partner in the first part of the cotillion.
I got to hold her hand, touch her waist, her fragrant scent might still be somewhere in my memories. Of course, she also held my hand and my shoulder. Our eyes would occasionally meet, then she'd smile and I'd reply by also smiling.
Our first few practice sessions was like a far off dream that only happened once in a life time. I was practically dancing with her everyday until the Prom.
Sadly, midway during the practice sessions, I cowardly confessed (more of implied, actually) that I have a crush on her. I said that I wanted to dance with her at the Prom even after the cotillion.
The days after sending that message, she distanced herself from me.
It was like building an enormous stack of cards that came crashing down after one single mistake. The rest of my high school days was partly depressing because of that.
During the Prom, after the cotillion, I held on to a rose and planned to give it to her at some point during the evening. One of my friends would push her near me but I acted cowardly. I avoided her, only to look like a stalker hiding in the shadows...or the curtains.
But I was greatly discouraged, too. During the cotillion, her hands didn't felt like the same as before I confessed to her. She avoided eye contact, and looked like she didn't want me getting close to her afterwards.
I was still able to give her the rose, but the tower of friendship that we had built was destroyed.
Our friendship went downhill, and I never got to have any fun talk to her ever again.
During our fourth year, she was reunited with her two best friends again. Sadly, I felt like I spoiled the fun because I had to be at the same section as her. Still, it was good enough that the presence of her two best friends dispelled my aura. At least she was happy.
But it just feels sad that I never got to hold any conversations with her and her best friends like from our 2nd year.
I acted like a jerk around them seeking her attention, but I assume that only made her impression of me even worst.
She didn't attend the field trip and also the JS Prom that year. It might be because of other reasons, but as I have the right to, I also blame myself.
I suppose the last really 'fun' time that I spent together with them was during the days we built the cardboard Christmas tree for the annual Lantern Parade. That and never again.
I wasn't even able to say goodbye at the graduation ceremony.
Now here's the catch, now that we've walked our own paths (not just us but everyone as well) I guess my downfall was that I also liked her two best friends.
Eliza and Eurika (just nicknames).
Her nickname, Nekohime, came from the nickname she used when she chatted with me at the Dollars live chat room.
I dubbed her Valkyria because, at the time when I realized I had a crush on her, I was playing Valkyria Chronicles II and thought that she was the exact opposite of Aliasse. Or perhaps I think it just befits her personality...I don't know.
Right know I'm supposed to not care, but deep down I still feel like I could've done something then that could have at least restored our friendship.
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