You see, this is what I get for being so sentimental about all the anime/stories that I watched/read so far about high school dramatic romances with a mix of adventure. I feel all lonely inside worrying (here I go again about damn worrying) about where these things called love and fate are taking me.
Most anime fans are probably aware of the upcoming anime adaptation of Kagerou Daze by Shaft titled Mekaku City Actors. I just recently became a fan of the video series by Shizen no Teki-p but it didn't take me long to immediately get hooked up. The art, music and story of Kagerou Daze has made me take another leap down the desperation alley thinking that I will forever be single.
But don't get me wrong. I did have a lot of crushes back in high school, but the sad thing here is I'm not in high school anymore. College is serious business filled with academic papers, term projects, grades and grades and grades. The road to adulthood is apparently really scary even though being an adult completely depends on the person. I personally don't like to call myself and adult, but I have no problem carrying all the responsibilities that come with it. It's not like I have a choice. Well I do actually but often times, the easy choice is the wrong choice that takes us into a much darker and deeper pit where we can all just look up, see the light but never get to it.
Life in general is almost like a single day itself. Early morning reflects childhood, it's all fun and games under the mantle of the shining sun. Afternoon is a time for preparation and Night is the period of time where we all prepared for. Night is the scariest part of the day especially when darkness isn't your friend. If you're not prepared, you get lost, you trip, you fall, you cry and then suddenly it's all over. But even though a single day can just pass by and greet us again tomorrow, life isn't that way.
One chance is all we get. One childhood, one preparation period and one adult life.
I don't understand why I'm really lamenting about the fact that my life is so ordinary. I just envy all those characters who have a fun day each day. Their normal days is adventure to me.
Most of the times when it's dark and lonely, all during the dead of the night, I'd open my windows and look at the outside. So empty and so dark. I don't want my life to be like that. I don't want to live my life alone and unwanted. It's scary and sad. And all I can call myself is pathetic.
Most anime fans are probably aware of the upcoming anime adaptation of Kagerou Daze by Shaft titled Mekaku City Actors. I just recently became a fan of the video series by Shizen no Teki-p but it didn't take me long to immediately get hooked up. The art, music and story of Kagerou Daze has made me take another leap down the desperation alley thinking that I will forever be single.
But don't get me wrong. I did have a lot of crushes back in high school, but the sad thing here is I'm not in high school anymore. College is serious business filled with academic papers, term projects, grades and grades and grades. The road to adulthood is apparently really scary even though being an adult completely depends on the person. I personally don't like to call myself and adult, but I have no problem carrying all the responsibilities that come with it. It's not like I have a choice. Well I do actually but often times, the easy choice is the wrong choice that takes us into a much darker and deeper pit where we can all just look up, see the light but never get to it.
Life in general is almost like a single day itself. Early morning reflects childhood, it's all fun and games under the mantle of the shining sun. Afternoon is a time for preparation and Night is the period of time where we all prepared for. Night is the scariest part of the day especially when darkness isn't your friend. If you're not prepared, you get lost, you trip, you fall, you cry and then suddenly it's all over. But even though a single day can just pass by and greet us again tomorrow, life isn't that way.
One chance is all we get. One childhood, one preparation period and one adult life.
I don't understand why I'm really lamenting about the fact that my life is so ordinary. I just envy all those characters who have a fun day each day. Their normal days is adventure to me.
Most of the times when it's dark and lonely, all during the dead of the night, I'd open my windows and look at the outside. So empty and so dark. I don't want my life to be like that. I don't want to live my life alone and unwanted. It's scary and sad. And all I can call myself is pathetic.
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