Tsurai Emotion

I understand now.
The greatest inspirations come from those who slowly kill you emotionally.

Earlier this evening, I managed to finish the prologue (for the thousand edit) of my school-life, romance themed story. I feel a little at ease in thinking up the scenario and typing it into a full narrative, every time I think of Ene and these two words: Kagerou Daze.

Shizen no Teki-P's work is slowly killing me in a very sad and emotional way but at least I'm starting to take the first steps (again) with my novels, so I think that is definitely a great thing.

Maybe some people are thinking that I'm exaggerating Kagerou Daze too much, but look around in several forumsm discussion pages or fan pages, they're all so eager with the upcoming anime adaptation. I'm not even at the point of saying "My life is complete one I finish watching Mekaku City Actors" (although I'm near that level now).

How should I put it, it's like the end of all things important and the start of a thousand years of loneliness in an empty world with nothing but your reflection and shadow.
Every time I think of KagePro and visualize myself in what kind of emotions I associate with the series, I see myself as alone in a distorted world of water and broken buildings.
It's just the blue sky obstructed by nothing but a few floating clouds, the earth which is now completely submerged in water, some parts are shallow, some are deep, and a broken world left by the remnants of the previous and final generation.

It's like my palace of info. Maybe if we had a way of visualizing the "world" inside our minds, that would be the world that it visualizes.

It's a scary thought, but somehow it puts me at ease. And it actually helped me write more efficiently.
Painful emotions return a torrent of inspiration.
It's when I consider being alone in a distorted world similar to being at peace.

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